I'M NOT OKAY (I PROMISE)
by My Chemical Romance
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
I love this song. "I never want to let you down or have you go; it's better off this way..." just seems to apply to my whole situation now.
And "What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?" applies to everyone who thinks that having an ED is "cool" or "a lifestyle" - that's bull. Eating disorders are terrifying and I'd give a limb to be normal. This song is a must-hear for everyone.
I know... I hate seeing girls shove a bag of chips in their backpacks at school without looking at the calorie content, or the amounts of other things...
ReplyDeleteI just really wish that I could be like them, and honestly not care, and not gain, and be perfect like they are...
I was practically addicted to this song when it first came out! I'll have to redownload this one for sure.
ReplyDeleteYou would NOT BELIEVE the way that some girls eat here at uni. They walk past with an entire tray full of food! Chicken fingers, fries, a cookie, chocolate milk. I pretend to be disgusted when really part of me is jealous.
Thank you so much for your kind words on my blog Posie! They've made me smile :)
I've been trying to get on your blog since you first left a comment on mine but it was private, i just by chance came on this to find it was you!
ReplyDeleteYou actually inspire me more then anything, your the same height as me and your my goal weight! How on earth do you do it?! Stay strong! ox
Thanks guys <3
ReplyDeleteKG: I just always remember: Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. The regret is never worth the temporary pleasure.