from "memento mori" to a phoenix rising
sickness to recovery

Saturday, August 21, 2010

if i know how guilty i'll feel, why can't i stop?

I was literally just kneeling on the bathroom floor with my fingers down my throat, and I didn't puke.

I could have done it, but I couldn't.

If I start that again, I'll never stop.

I'll die.

So I just get to feel like hell.

People talk about hell - ha.

They know nothing of hell.

1 comment:

  1. Hey gorgeous girl, I'm kinda in a similar place to you. I've eaten so bad and no way to purge, I'm scared to go back there, so instead I sit here my stomach aching and my mind scattered with fear... yeah we're in hell, but at least we're not alone Xo

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