from "memento mori" to a phoenix rising
sickness to recovery

Sunday, August 8, 2010

dinner kills me

Ugh, ugh, ugh.
I started this blog to keep me honest, so here it is.
Today:  I was 102 all day, swam and biked, only ate about 150 cal.


Dinner = death.  Binged.
slice of pork
grilled pepper/onion/zucchini mix
cup of broccoli
cup of rice
cup of yam-yums (deathhhh)
2 pieces of corn bread
and some chocolate.


Just kill me now!  I was doing SO WELL.  Friggin' dinner with parents watching and then me not having self control once I start eating.  I swore to myself I wouldn't purge anymore, no no no, but I might.  Idk if I can help it, today.  Help me.


I hate me, sometimes.  Lots of times.  Most times.
Plus, fighting with Boyfriend.
Ugh.

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