Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Friday, June 7, 2013
and it's really kind of funny
and kind of sad
how familiar it is to be in a bathroom
frantically covering my arm with make up to hide still bleeding cuts
and looking at the toilet and wondering if today's a day to purge
and if today's a day to relapse.
i don't know what to do anymore, guys. i really don't.
i'm falling apart and there's no one to notice or care
and kind of sad
how familiar it is to be in a bathroom
frantically covering my arm with make up to hide still bleeding cuts
and looking at the toilet and wondering if today's a day to purge
and if today's a day to relapse.
i don't know what to do anymore, guys. i really don't.
i'm falling apart and there's no one to notice or care
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Monday, January 14, 2013
Sunday, January 13, 2013
the long awaited update on posie's life
Well hello there my lovelies. I'm so pleased that there are still people here, although at the same time I'm sad, because, let's face it. The pro-ana/anorexia/ED/whateveryoucallthis community is saddening. Anyway, no time for that rant just now.
What's been happening in my life? In the broad overview, I'm alive, well, healthy, and mostly happy.
In more detail, I'm at college/university now. I absolutely love it, and I've made the best friends of my life. I'm still dating my amazing, wonderful boyfriend of almost two years, and I couldn't be happier with him. I love him.
My weight has stabilized, finally, at about 115 pounds. I actually went to college and lost weight and I'm attempting to normalize my relationship with food. There's a lot of up and downs, which is to be expected, but I'm getting there. I'm not totally happy with my weight, but I've lately been allowed to start exercising again, which should help. My boyfriend is also amazing; I had never felt beautiful before him, and without fail, he makes me feel like the most amazing girl in the world. I've definitely relapsed a few times, but I'm doing well overall, in ED sense of things. The beginning of my first semester at uni was rough; I became pretty depressed and suicidal. With the grace of God and the help of everyone I know I'm working on that too.
I'm still far from "normal," but then again, who wants to be normal?
Anything you want answered, leave a comment. I love you guys.
What's been happening in my life? In the broad overview, I'm alive, well, healthy, and mostly happy.
In more detail, I'm at college/university now. I absolutely love it, and I've made the best friends of my life. I'm still dating my amazing, wonderful boyfriend of almost two years, and I couldn't be happier with him. I love him.
My weight has stabilized, finally, at about 115 pounds. I actually went to college and lost weight and I'm attempting to normalize my relationship with food. There's a lot of up and downs, which is to be expected, but I'm getting there. I'm not totally happy with my weight, but I've lately been allowed to start exercising again, which should help. My boyfriend is also amazing; I had never felt beautiful before him, and without fail, he makes me feel like the most amazing girl in the world. I've definitely relapsed a few times, but I'm doing well overall, in ED sense of things. The beginning of my first semester at uni was rough; I became pretty depressed and suicidal. With the grace of God and the help of everyone I know I'm working on that too.
I'm still far from "normal," but then again, who wants to be normal?
Anything you want answered, leave a comment. I love you guys.
Friday, January 4, 2013
well if it wasn't delightful to hear from some of you!
I'm so glad to know that you all still care, at least a little, haha.
I'm working on my update and will post it asap.
I'm working on my update and will post it asap.
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