I need to run.
It is not a want any longer. I do want to run. But more than that, I need to run, to fly over the ground and leave this all behind me. To lace up my trainers and feel in control once more, to breathe and breathe and step and step and run. Fly.
I need to run, before I lose my mind.
But if I run now, I may never run again. My leg is still healing. It needs time.
I don't know if I have time.
I fall deeper and deeper everyday, closer and closer. I haven't cut in weeks, for the Boy. I'm eating, for the Boy. All this, for love.
But how long can I play this charade? How long can I fake a person who isn't a lunatic, when the lunatic is slipping and creeping and dripping through the cracks in the mask?
I need to run. I need help.
I need to run.
Long term misery without running. Hold on, if you don't heal now you'll never run again. Can you cycle instead? You get speed and no impact on the leg if you keep to the flat.
ReplyDeletePLEASE LOOK AFTER YOUR LEG!
*Huggles*
As Peri said, if you run now, you risk loving it completely! And it's such a passion of yours. Be good :) and rest up sweetheart xxxx
ReplyDeleteDuhhh *losing
ReplyDeleteugh, I completely understand. I had to stop for four weeks with an injury and it was the worst four weeks of my life. but I was better for me to wait and come back quick than to jump the gun and be out for months. it's hard but it's wayyyy worth it.
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