thank you

thank you to TinyRose and Peridot for always [still] being here for me

and it's really kind of funny
and kind of sad
how familiar it is to be in a bathroom
frantically covering my arm with make up to hide still bleeding cuts
and looking at the toilet and wondering if today's a day to purge

and if today's a day to relapse.
i don't know what to do anymore, guys.  i really don't.
i'm falling apart and there's no one to notice or care