today was a record high temperature for where i live.
every time i stood up to do something with the kids, i saw black. nearly passed out at least 12 times.
i've been in the negative calories for the past 4 days.
96 pounds.
one of the other counselors told my mother i haven't been eating lunch.
she made me eat today.
i ran, to get rid of it. but i can't run enough.
heathotsweat pass out
i can't pass out. then they'll really know.
can't let them know. can't let them know. Boyfriend would have that look in his eyes. he can't know.
fatfatfatfat.
[i ate an egg white, a banana, some peanut butter. whatever she makes me eat for dinner.]
[ran a 5K. a 10K yesterday. yesterday was -161 calories.]
[that's all.]
still.
fat.
Hugs, be careful. You might find that you lose more easily if you eat a little every day rather than going negative, you know? x
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