it means that I will never be good enough. Never eat little enough or be thin enough and yet I feel better than everyone else because I'm thinner. Its confidence and low self-esteem at the same time. Its loneliness and at the same time its something I can turn to when everyone else turns away. Its a scream for help and also a way to get revenge on the people who have hurt me. Its hating myself yet loving myself enough to lose weight. Its happiness when I lose, when I get a compliment or get called thin, and its sadness when the voices in my head scream fat fat fat. Whatever it is, its something thats mine and something no one can take away from me.
it means that I will never be good enough. Never eat little enough or be thin enough and yet I feel better than everyone else because I'm thinner. Its confidence and low self-esteem at the same time.
ReplyDeleteIts loneliness and at the same time its something I can turn to when everyone else turns away.
Its a scream for help and also a way to get revenge on the people who have hurt me.
Its hating myself yet loving myself enough to lose weight.
Its happiness when I lose, when I get a compliment or get called thin, and its sadness when the voices in my head scream fat fat fat.
Whatever it is, its something thats mine and something no one can take away from me.