from "memento mori" to a phoenix rising
sickness to recovery

Sunday, March 25, 2012

a picture

Here are my legs.  Last year.  During the time the scale was taken away.  So I'm guesstimating I weighed around 90 pounds.  Maybe less.  Maybe more.  The jeans are a 0.


I'm just a fatass now.  Stuck at 115 and can't seem to do a damn thing about it.  Donated those jeans.  Ha.

I hate me.

4 comments:

  1. babe I'm right here. I'm so sorry I haven't been commenting.

    you are NOT a fatass ok?! and whatever your weight now you're going to get to a happy place because I know you can!

    I'm here with you doll, I'm stuck between 110-112 and have been for 6 months....

    we're going to fucking do this. just start right now ok? x

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  2. id kill myself for those legs *no pun intended *
    im ur hight n ur HW is my low ur like, amazing

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  3. you're legs look fine darling! You're not a fatass!!

    xx SN

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  4. 115 is slim. 115 is lovely. Your current BMI is what hot celebrities look like, what VS models look like. Your old BMI is like what holocaust survivors look like. I know it's not all about appearance & being at an attractive weight, but I know some of it is.

    Your jeans are a zero and they're baggy as all hell. Your legs in that photo are not fine, you were hospitalised! You were dying! I don't know how to put it to you without sounding overbearing, but I hate that people encourage you to lose weight & embrace your anorexia, when you put in so much effort to be healthy. It's not a GOOD thing to be anorexic. It's not an attractive thing. Why do they make out that it is? What if you died??

    It frustrates me just cos I bet you're fucking stunning at the moment. I bet everyone in your life thinks so. I bet your body looks fucking gorgeous right now, but you don't see it, or you won't let yourself see it. :( See it!

    x

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