from "memento mori" to a phoenix rising
sickness to recovery

Thursday, December 15, 2011

can someone explain to me

what is broken, in my head?

I remember clearly how miserable and depressed I was when I "too skinny."  I was cold, always cold.  Miserable.  Helpless.

Why do I want to go back to that?  Help?

1 comment:

  1. You want to go back because it is familiar? Because the unknown of life without spazzing seems unstable and scary? Because letting something else control your brain and emotions and actions is comfortable and comforting?

    Screw being helpless in the jaws of the wolf. Stab the bastard in the eye and make him drop you so you can be Your Gorgeous Self and nobody else's puppet.

    Spread your wings and aim for the stars. Kick off the things that make you a miserable, helpless slave.

    *Huggles*

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