for it is only when

the night is darkest, that we can see the stars.

Keep your heads up, gals.  We can beat this thing.  I love you all.

hard to fail

It is hard to fail, but it worse never to have tried to succeed.

 ~Theodore Roosevelt

ever seen your boyfriend cry?

18

Tomorrow is my 18th birthday.

I will legally be an adult in this country.  Old enough to vote, to fight, to make my own decisions.

Can I decide to lose this [horrendously disgusting] weight?

Happy birthday to me.

never have i ever

Give me a fact about you!

Never have you ever...?

Never have I ever: told Boyfriend about my cutting.
But I'm afraid he's going to find out this weekend.
Also I am still a fatass.  Disgustingly so.  

a thin layer

will i never be normal?

i feel like i live my life from the wrong side of the mirror - there's a thin layer of glass between me and the rest of the world.

and no matter what i do, i can't (won't?) break it.

more like it

raced today, 3 seconds off my PR

(that's personal record for you non-runners - although i can't understand not running, running is the most amazing feeling/thing/activity everr)

w00t.  i can do that.  now i just gotta stop being a fatass!

if only it was that simple haha.